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Monday, February 28, 2005
youthful days coming to an end?
Mood:
 surprised
Now Playing: Metallica
Topic: life
Today I have been feeling in a really depressing mood (although I almost always am). My friends are pretty much used to it by now. But anywho, I am usually much more prone to think about things when Im this way. So, to get to my point, I was thinking about that I am only going to be a teenager for a few more years and then its over and i'll be working for almost the rest of my life. Its such a scary thought. I haven't ever done the dishes let alone having a job. I know for a fact that im not going to let myself turn into somebody normal. Thats the one thing i fear the most. I want to move to ireland or scottland and have a small one-room cottage with an herb garden. thats what I really want to do. Oh, and have an adopted daughter from russia, which i will end up living there for five years.
Posted by moondancer0629
at 3:33 PM PST
Sunday, February 27, 2005
dreams
Mood:
 not sure
Topic: thoughtful
I was just thinking about something and it's pretty cool. Actually, it's a theory that my friend came up with when we were really bored in a hotel room. Here it is: okay, so you know how you never die in dreams? Well is that because if you die in you dream, you die for real? And if so, is taht why people die in their sleep? I just thought it was an interesting concept.
~sweet dreams~
Posted by moondancer0629
at 10:10 PM PST
Im bored
Mood:
 spacey
Now Playing: green day: boulevard of broken dreams
I am not a popular girl. Sure, I get talked to and i'm not a geek, but other than the occasional conversation, im pretty much a loner. The popular people at my school always wonder why i am a loner and this question made me wonder how i ended up this way. I thought about it really hard on friday afternoon while staring at the back of tyler rooney's icky afro on the bus ride home. Then it came to me: I have no desire to be popular! I really, for unknown reasons, enjoy being anti-social. I mean, I like to be different and i despise things like pop culture and preppy type stuff. I like more worth while things like Wicca and meditation, reading, and most importantly: people watching. I love to do that lately. Especially gothic people. I have always loved the gothic look and mind set. They must think im the biggest freak for staring at them like that, but i just can't help it. At first glance, they look neat. but if you look closer, you notice small details like ther piercings and the t-shirts with odd slogans on them (which keep me busy throughout the boring school day by thinking about the meaning behind them). But if you look even closer you notice things like the make up and all of the crap scribbled on their binder. Its just so interesting to me to see such a defferent personality like that, clashing agianst the preps and everyone else. I love the "don't care" attitude. Man, I am just a bit bummed that i turned out to be boring. the funnest thing i have done this month was have a anti-valentines day party with a few friends. I really do hate valentines day. its so superficial and crap. Anyways, its getting late. I must tragically trudge on through the boring blurr of school tommrow and do the same damn thing over and over again followed by the same damn homework and the same damn go to the computer to end the damn boredness tommrgow! *sighs*
Posted by moondancer0629
at 9:56 PM PST
Updated: Sunday, February 27, 2005 10:03 PM PST
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